September 1, 2010

Fa bi ayyi aalaai rabbikumaa tukazzibaan?

Posted in Uncategorized at 10:11 am by ummsofiyyah

“Which then of the bounties of your Lord will you deny?”

 

So we all know which surah this verse is from – Ar-rahmaan. I sometimes think ar-rahmaan is like, one of the most popular surahs amongst the people I know. When praying taraawih with the sisters or when they are asked to choose a surah to read for tilawah, ar-rahmaan is always a favourite choice.

I guess it’s because we know that we constantly need to be reminded of the ni’mah that God has blessed upon us. To put it crudely, we know we are not thankful enough.

So allow me to continue the story from my previous post (:p).

Where was I? Oh yes. So I started running away when the cat started to run towards us. My friend didn’t run because she isn’t afraid of cats la kan, so suspect suke lagi kucing tu lari kat dia. And also, because I didn’t allow her to? I was like, while running while going “OMG OMG pls dun move! stop the cat!” or something like that la (I gotta admit I was a bit hilang pedoman there). But luckily, I was running with my head looking backwards. No, more like, fixing my eyes on her to ensure that she doesn’t get anywhere near me and if my friend is doing a good job stopping her.

She was running towards my friend and she stopped in front of her. So I stopped too (ni kes macam, takut takut tapi curious. Takut2 kucing gitu? Hahahaha. Get it? HAHAHA. hm. ehem. hm). Then I saw it. She looked up to my friend, stared for awhile before licking her paws. Then she ran back to her kittens.

Then my friend turned and walked towards me.

“OMG. What did she just do?’ asked the pathetically scared Hannah who was already suspecting something by this time.

“She just wanted to say thank you,” answered my friend with a gentle smile.

That was it. I burst into tears. You know whyyy. Because right, I swear to God that before that incident, my friend was telling me how cats show that they are thankful by licking their paws.

“WHAT? where got. Merepek la. They lick their paws after they eat right?”

“Yeah…”

“Yeah la! So they are just like cleaning themselves la you know? Like cuci tangan. Ape je thankful. Don’t humanize the cats too much la you.”

“No, really really. It is their way of saying thanks.”

“HAHAHAHA. Merepek.” *poor friend got shrugged off*

So when I saw it happening, with my own eyes, and I recalled what she told me months before, how can I not cry?

She was the mother cat, who was so thin and hungry and always very scared of people. But on that day, she approached us for food. And when she had food, she had only a few bites of the tuna before leaving the rest for her kittens.

And yet she did not forget to show her thanks to us.

Can you understand what I’m saying? Can you understand why I am so amazed by this mother cat? It is not normal for cats to act in that way, is it? Cats are ANIMALS you know. They don’t give thanks, no? I know that people say that animals give thanks to Allah, but.. You know what I mean?

I even thought that my friend was delusional and was trying to humanize the cat when she told me about it before. Because I thought that it is a very HUMAN THING to be able to feel thankful and express their thanks.

In fact, the word “rabbikumaa” in the verse earlier, as we all know, the “kumaa” in Arabic is used to refer to two people/groups. And in this context of this ayat, it is referred to the groups (thaqalaan) – ins and jinn (manusia dan jin).

So there I was, thinking that humans are more capable of giving thanks and animals aren’t until I was given a rude shock.

Ya Allah, korang, if animals can show thanks in that manner, what then is expected of the thaqalaan? Are we thankful for every meal? Or every breath? Or every living moment that we have?

And so, because I arrogantly thought that it was a ‘human’ thing to give thanks, what do I make of myself when I fail to?

And so, would you not have cried too if you were in my position?:’(

Ramadhan mubarak everyone.

I have this horrible confession to make. I think I might have killed the cat you know:’(  Once I saw the mother cat, after the incident, and I was trying to feed the cat the sandwiches I bought just for her. But she didn’t want to eat! I was surprised. Maybe she wasnt that hungry, I thought. Then I was eating KITKAT, you know, the chocolate thingy, then I gave it to her (more like campak because again, I AM TERRIFIED OF HER STILL REMEMBER?). And guess what, SHE ATE IT. Then I was soo happy thinking that yay, I get to feed her again, so I gave her the rest of the KITKAT! Then like a few days later, I swear to God that I JUST REMEMBERED that someone told me that feeding a cat chocolates can cause them to DIE. I got soo scared and I told my cat expert friend about it and she was like, OMG, I think she’s dead. And really you know, we have never seen her since then.

*soooooooooooooobbbbbss*

But she was really happy eating the KITKAT you know?:’(

Oh no. I feel terrible all over again. I thought I have moved on from it, cause I was terribly scared over it and I didn’t tell anyone else except for my friend. But now that I am blogging about the mother cat..

*ssooooooooooooooobbbbbbbbbbss*

K I’m too depressed. Please make prayers for me. I mean yes, for the cat yang da most probably passed away (please pray that she had an easy death if she really is deaaaad), but for me more please. Because I might really have killed her. Astaghfirullahal ‘azheem.

Macam mane ni?;’(

Oh. You know what. Please pray that she didn’t die because of my KITKAT! Maybe we just didn’t see her around anymore or she died because of other things.. :’(

I don’t knoww…:’( Allahul musta’an!

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