07.26.08
The Secret Verses.
After performing my maghrib prayers, I picked my up Quran. It’s been awhile since I’ve really sat down and recite those beautiful verses. I’ve been negligent. And so maybe I’m reminded of reading them again after I was striked hard by the news. Ah, so despicable my heart is. Shame on me. Picking up the Quran again after a few weeks because I’m feeling down now? Where did I place the Quran just a few weeks ago?
And so with the name of Allah, I flipped through the pages of the Quran. I looked for the bookmark indicating the last page I’ve read a few weeks ago. Found it. I started to read it out loud. Usually I would stop after about 4 pages. Honestly it’s because after reading out loud for 4 pages, my throat would feel sore. Hehe. But I felt that since I’ve stopped doing it on a daily basis for quite some time, I wanted to make up for it. And so I continued reading. Surprisingly, my throat didn’t feel sore today.
And then I saw it.
Those verses. I’ve long known of those verses before, and I knew the story behind it and everything. In fact, I even quoted the story to a friend of mine when were discussing about my problem. But I swear to God that I didn’t remember that the verses are found in that particular surah I was reading. Sikit pun tak. So imagine how I felt when I saw the verses.
That’s the thing you see. Sometimes we know, in fact, we usually know. But simply knowing is not enough. Like myself, I know that I shouldn’t be giving up hope, that this is a test, miracles do happen and all. But just me telling myself is not enough. In this kind of depressing situation, I need someone to tell me all that walaupun I’ve already known. It’s like, I need someone to comfort me, tell me it’s gonna be alright and stuffs. Korang paham kaan?
So bile nampak ayat2 tu, I was simply overwhelmed with emotions. Happiness, hope, joy, wanting.. ahh. tak tau macam mana nak cakap. I had to stop reading. The tears were welling up my eyes. My voice started to sound shaky. I felt like God was sending a direct message to me. I felt like God wanted to congratulate me after I’ve decided to not throw myself into dejection and dissapoinment. I felt God being so close to me, so very close.
The feeling is truly amazing. And to think that the verses are like direct advices to my problems.. Ahh. I can’t stop gushing, I know. I’m sorry. But really, it’s going to leave a big impact on me for the rest of my life.
I remembered attending Dr Jeffrey Lang’s talk. He was saying how he has started reading the Quran before he converted, and the thing which made him attracted to the Quran is because he felt that as if the Quran was communicating with him, answering his every doubt and question. And then he asked this question which is a question he has had with him since the very difficult times of his childhood, having had an abusive father who would beat them up and their poor mother. That is the question which he couldn’t find an answer for and caused him to leave Christianity for Atheism. And it was answered soon after when he read surah Ad-dhuhaa.
The question was: God, if You’re really there, why did You forsake me?
1. By the forenoon (after sun-rise);
2. And by the night when it is still (or darkens);
3. Your Lord has neither forsaken you nor hated you.
4. And indeed the Hereafter is better for you than the present (life of this world).
5. And verily, your Lord will give you (all i.e. good) so that you shall be well-pleased.
6. Did He not find you an orphan and gave you a refuge?
7. And He found you unaware and guided you?
8. And He found you poor, and made you rich ?
9. Therefore, treat not the orphan with oppression,
10. And repulse not the beggar;
11. And proclaim the Grace of your Lord.
MasyaAllah.
As for me, I’m sorry but I can’t share the verses which I’ve been talking about.. Because if I do, most of you would probably know the problem I’m facing now, which is very very personal to me. But I sincerely hope that I will be able to share this amazing feeling with you guys coz it’s one of the best feelings ever. So if you’ve been like me, putting aside your Quran in a corner of your shelf, start picking it up and read it. At least a page a day. It’s not difficult at all, insyaAllah. I’ll tell myself that, and we should all tell ourselves that too. The Quran itself is a miracle, but it is up to us to find the miracle within.
:)
07.24.08
A hat trick.
I had a terrible loss about two months back. It was a loss I painfully mourned for. It was a precious, magnificent thing which I had grown to be so dependent of over the years. It’s like my safety blanket.
For a period of time, I felt so lost. I would stare into the empty space and tears would roll down my cheeks. I didn’t know what to do. I did not know what to expect next. It was really that significant to me. I grew paranoid of imagining having to face setbacks without having it by side. It was not like I needed it to do much. I mean, it was just a safety blanket, what was there to expect? I would just wrap it around and immerse myself in the comforting warmth and the assuring sense of security which I had grown so addicted of and couldn’t bear to lose – even at the cost of many things which are dear to me.
Then apparently what I had dreaded of materialised just a barely a month after. It was just a huge blow to me that I couldn’t even speak to express my thoughts – I had to raise my voice at the top of my lungs. And everything which came out from my mouth at that point of time was nothing but incoherent sentences thundered by my immense anger which I could contain no more. I was shaking too, feeling so cold while it was actually a hot sunny, global-warmed afternoon. Hah. But really, it was the most horrible breakdown ever.
And blanket wasn’t there. And I barely scrapped through by pushing it to the corner of my mind and pretended that it didn’t happen.
Then now, this mortifying piece of news that shook my entire being just had to strike my already fragile self. O Allah, I just have one simple wish which I have always vividly envisioned of. It’s simple enough to make some people look down at me for even thinking about it. Yet this piece of news threatens even that. Now the future ahead seems so bleak to me. Why me, Allah?? Where did I go wrong??
And blanket was still not there. I felt like getting down on my knees, begging and crying out to anyone who could return me my blanket, so that I can just pull it up high enough to cover my whole self and hide myself underneath it and cry my eyes out till I’m already ok.
I took a taxi back home just now. Before I knew it, my lashes were wet and a downpour followed soon after. I cried and cried, not caring even when the taxi took a longer route home. Might as well, I thought. More time to cry. Suddenly, just suddenly, I was reminded of a story I once read from my school’s English textbook.
Cerita dia merepek sikit but just bear with what this shattered person has to share, yea?
Once there was a guy who was very poor while everyone around him was not. He was burdened with several responsibilities that he felt was too heavy for him to carry, due to his financial constraints. The richer people, on the other hand, seemed to be leading a carefree life and not being bogged down with problems and complications. He was very unhappy and decided to seek audience with this ‘god’ to rectify this injustice.
So he went up to meet ‘god’, carrying a sack on his back (it represents the weight of his problems). After telling ‘god’ of his problems, the ‘god’ then told him this:
“I will not free you from all problems, but I will allow you to exchange your sack with another man’s sack.”
The man was elated. He was sure that he has one of the most terrible conditions. So he threw his sack down. After awhile, ‘god’ told him to go down the ladder and pick the sack he wants to take home.
So off he went, and he took a long time choosing and picking from a variety of assorted sacks with different weights, shapes and sizes. Finally he picked one and climbed back the stairs. He was very happy.
So ‘god’ asked him: “Are you sure this is the sack you want?”
“Yes,” he said. “This is the lightest and smallest of them all.”
“That is actually the exact sack which you have thrown down the ladder a moment ago.”
Merepek yes the story? But sometimes, when you’re feeling as dejected as I was, you can sometimes find enlightenment in the merepekest of things.
Haha.
Actually, the story reminded me of a verse in the Quran:
“Allah burdens not a person beyond his scope.” (AlBaqarah:286).
“Allah burdens not a person beyond his scope.” (AlBaqarah:286).
“Allah burdens not a person beyond his scope.” (AlBaqarah:286).
“Allah burdens not a person beyond his scope.” (AlBaqarah:286).
“Allah burdens not a person beyond his scope.” (AlBaqarah:286).
“Allah burdens not a person beyond his scope.” (AlBaqarah:286).
“Allah burdens not a person beyond his scope.” (AlBaqarah:286).
Umm Sofiyyah, can you see the verse? (Tak nampak pun nasib eh. NASIB). So what can you learn from it?
1) Allah has promised that no one will be burdened of something which is beyond his capabilities. So eventhough I am now so broken over this hat trick of mine (sounds very wrong, but you know, i know la hokey), I must not feel so hopeless and useless. And I must never ever give up hope. If I do, that means I am doing injustice to myself, for I am not giving my best to overcome this problem WHICH I DEFINITELY HAVE THE ABILITY TO OVERCOME, INSYAALLAH.
2) WHY ME??? Because, I am STRONG. That is why Allah has given me with such big, big tests, isn’t it? Now, Allah won’t give something which is beyond my capablities kan? So when I am given something which now seems so ridiculously hard to me, that means I am actually stronger than I actually think I am. Coz it might seem impossible for me to go through this (what with the missing blanket and all) but Allah knows better right? In fact, He knows me better than I know myself. He knows I can do this. And if I don’t trust Allah, then what is the purpose of living? Riighhhht?
Yes Umm Sofiyyah. Right on :)
So Umm Sofiyyah, don’t be like that man in the story which you thought about while you’re making the taxi ahpek uncomfortable with your sobbing. Coz if given a choice, you’ll most probably end up like him; picking the same sack over the rest a thousand times over.
Yes Umm Sofiyyah, even if you have to lose blanket over and over again, and even if you have to lose more things and people along the way, even if you have to lose one simple dream tu pun; you will still pick that particular sack. I know you have yet to see the blessings or the hikmah behind these events and it hurts you to the point that you doubt if you can ever be the same person you used to be again. But Allah knows you can do it. So believe in Him.
“Alaa bizikrillahi tatmainnul quluub..”
“Bukankah dengan mengingati Allah, hati menjadi tenang..”
It feels good to be Muslims kan?:)
P/s: Do pray for me yeah? Jazaakumullahu khairan. :)
P/P/s: Awak. Thanks. No matter what happens. Tawakkaltu ’alallah :)
07.22.08
Not now, Izrael.
Once, I was having a very engaging conversation with my friend who was at that time still in Madinah. He was telling me something and then suddenly “eh, aku log out dulu.” I thought it’s because his internet time is almost up (he was at the CC), and being ME yang pantang kalau orang cakap halfway (those who know me close enough would know. hehe), I said “eh nanti la. habeskan cerita dulu.” And he replied something which shook my heart hard..
“Kalau aku tau bile aku mati, then aku stay.. Aku nak pergi sembahyang maghrib dulu.”
I didn’t know it was already maghrib in Madinah but ahhhhh. I’m guilty of procastinating my prayers nevertheless :(
In fact, I am guilty of procastinating many other changes. I keep telling myself that I’ll start changing next week, or next month; but sometimes, eventually, I still didn’t see any changes in me. Sometimes people will try to comfort me. Take it easy they say, “there’s no compulsion in religion.”
I believe that they are just nice people who are trying to appease me, but my ustaz told me that in the context of the ayat, the ‘compulsion’ mentioned is meant as the compulsion for non-Muslims to become Muslims. But for those who are already Muslims?
“Dan masuklah kamu ke dalam Islam secara KESELURUHANNYA, dan janganlah kamu turuti langkah-langkah syaitan..”
What if next year never comes for me? Or next month, or not even the next day? Or when everytime I think “this will be the last time I’m going to do this,” only to find out later that it is the last time I will be able to do ANYTHING? That is something I have absolutely no knowledge of.. But there is something I am very very sure of..
“Dan setiap nyawa itu pasti akan merasakan kematian..”
And I know that when the time comes, there is no way I can escape from it. Not a second later, not a second sooner. No. No way at all.
Dan bagi tiap-tiap umat ada tempoh (ajal yang telah ditetapkan); maka apabila datang tempohnya, tidak dapat mereka dikemudiankan walau sesaatpun, dan tidak dapat pula mereka didahulukan. (Al-A’raaf : 34)
So why am I procastinating? I do not have all the time in the world, and I definitely have no idea on how much time I have left. Do I want to be like those mentioned in the Quran?
Mereka menjawab: “Wahai Tuhan kami, kami telah dikalahkan oleh sebab-sebab kecelakaan kami, dan dengan itu menjadilah kami kaum yang sesat. Wahai Tuhan kami, keluarkanlah kami dari neraka ini (serta kembalikanlah kami ke dunia); setelah itu kalau kami kembali lagi (mengerjakan kufur dan maksiat), maka sesungguhnya kami orang-orang yang zalim.” (Allah) berfirman: “Diamlah kamu dengan kehinaan di dalam neraka, dan janganlah kamu berkata-kata (memohon sesuatupun) kepadaKu! (Al-Mu’minuun:106-108 )
Of course I don’t – begging for a chance I would never ever will be able to get, while I’ve abandoned all the opporunities once laid before me. Wa na’uuzubillahi min dzaalik.
I can’t afford to procastinate. The Prophet (saw) said, it is a loss for someone who doesn’t change for the better when you compare him now and yesterday. Point is, I have to continuously improve myself every single day. Every SINGLE day.
So there you have it. My struggle against procastination. It will be super difficult and there will be times when I will feel like giving up, but everytime I feel like so I will try to remind myself that I simply can’t afford to. I’m not asking myself to have morbid thoughts by constantly thinking of death and all.. I think I’m simply facing up to reality which I’ve been pushing aside to a corner in my mind.
Well, unless I can say..
“Not now, Izrael”
.. when he comes to me exactly at the time and date already stated in Lauh Mahfuz.
07.21.08
“You won’t want to be a Jew”.
Part 2.
Kosher.
As some of you might have already known, Muslims are allowed to eat the meat slaughtered by a Jew if they really adhere to the rules and conditions that would make the meat ‘kosher’. They, on the other hand, can not necessarily eat all of our halal food.
Now in Singapore, they have a Kosher restaurant and a place where they sell kosher food products. Khanaya said that the Rabbi himself slaughters the chicken in Singapore. He does that behind this nearby building, slaughtering an average of 160 chickens weekly! For meat, they usually import it from Melbourne or Israel.
One thing for sure, the Jewish are really strict about their diet. My friend told me that even for the utensils they have used kan, for example kalau they have used a spoon to stir the milk, they cannot use the same spoon for meat. Only after it has undergone some rituals done by the Rabbi can they use it for the meat ke ape2. Interesting kan?
And say, the knives that they’ve used to slaughter the animals can no longer be used, they can’t simply discard it. Yes, you’ve guessed it right. They have to bury it.
10 commandments? You wish!
“So how many commandments do you think we have?”
“10!”
“10? Oh no. Waaay more than that. 613 commandments (Or was it 630? Sorry tak dgr sgt:s)”
“But ya, the 10 ones are the more famous ones”
And so he explained that they out of the 600+ commandments, they clearly have more dont’s than do’s.
Which reminds me of a concept in Usul fiqh:
“Al-aslu fil asyaa’ al-ibaahah” (asalnya semua perkara itu adalah mubah; dibolehkan)
A point brought up by Bro Mubarak in the bus on our way home was, if we were to really sit down and think of the do’s and dont’s in Islam, we will realise that we definitely have more do’s than dont’s.
I remember attending one of Dr Asri’s talks, and he was saying how Muslims are now overly focusing on what they CANNOT do, while they forget the fact that there are MORE things that they can actually do.
Cirumcision.
One of the boys asked Khanaya, ” what is the tall chair for?”
Indeed, the tall chair placed at the front looked like the type of chair a queen would sit on.
So Khanaya explained.
Just like Muslims, young Jewish boys have to go through circumcisions as well. But they have to do it when they’re only 8 days old (if they are healthy enough). And they believe that everytime, there’s a majlis berkhatan (hehe), the spirit of Prophet Elijah would come to attend the ceremony as well, and he will seat on that tall chair, blessing the event. (Winking at whoever who is thinking what I’m thinking about just after reading this sentence. Hehe).
Conversion.
“So, how do you handle conversions in Judaism?”
“Oh.. Actually we don’t encourage conversions. When someone comes to us to convert, we will try talk him out of it. Even the Rabbi has said that. He said if someone wants to convert, talk him our of it.”
“But why is that?”
“Oh.. Because it’s very very difficult to be a Jew. Really it is. *whispers* You won’t want to be a Jew! But really, we try to talk someone out of conversion. Even if say, we’ve really talked him out of it and he insists on being one, then yeah, he’s a convert, but.. we don’t really encourage conversions.”
Bro Mubarak, on the way home, sahred with us a point that.. According to their beliefs, only born Jews can work their way up to the highest level of heaven. Converts, no matter how hard they try, won’t be able to do so.
Makes me wonder how Andrew Lim of Under One Roof fame is coping after his rather, high-profile conversion to Judaism.
“The most honorable of you in Allah’s sight are the most Godwary” (49:13)
Hokey. Selesai sudah post mengenai lawatan ke synagogue itu. Very intriguing. Boleh nampak how similar yet how very different as well our faiths are. Definitely something to ponder about, eh?:)
Ila hunaa faqat. Ilalliqa’ insyaAllah:)
07.20.08
He-who-must-not-be-named.
Bismillaahirrahmaanirrahiim.
Today some of the students and teachers of the Darul Arqam youth classes (DAYS) and some of the DA staffs as well, went to visit a synagogue ( just for our info, it’s the place of worship for orang2 yahudi). Budak2 tu tak excited sangat tau, tapi teacher2 ni yang excited. Hihi. I mean, how many time do we actually pass by a SYNAGOGUE? Church ye la, but a SYNAGOGUE? I didn’t even know it existed. I know, sorry. How ignorant I was kan.
Let’s hope that Khatim will pass me the pictures soon so we can all see the details of the place, hokey? It’s very very interesting tau:)
Anyway, our host for the trip was this 20-year-old lad from New York. His name is Khanaya (or was it Khananiya?). He’s here for this some sort of an attachment that his college arranges for its students (he’s from a Jewish religious school). The students will be sent to places all over the world as long as the KHABA (i do not know the spelling, but that’s how it’s pronounced) association of the Jewish is there. They’ll be posted for about a year before they go back to their own countries. Cool kan? Some sort of a global outreach programme. Maybe Islamic universities can consider doing something like that in the near future? :)
Shalom shalom (the Jewish greeting. Sounds similar? :) ).
So Khanaya was briefing to us roughly on what is Judaism and he was answering our questions, when suddenly a brother put up his hand and asked ” what is your concept of God? “.
“Ah. I think it would be difficult to answer your question. The thing is, God isn’t a human. We can’t see Him, and I can’t tell you to go like, right or left, across the traffic light and you’ll see Him. No, it’s not like that. But we know He exists. And Because God is so superior and well above us, that we humans with our limited minds will never be able to fully comprehend what form God is or something like that. What we do know is, He has given us His commandments and that is what we should abide by. We should fear Him, yet establish this form of strong love between us and Him.. Ah.. I hope that answers your question.”
Isn’t that strikingly familiar and something we can all relate to? That reminds me of a verse:
“If you ask them, who created them (the non-muslims), they will certainly say, Allah. How then are they deluded away (from the Truth)? “ Surah Az-zukhruf, verse 87. And there are many other similar verses which can be found in the Quraan.
He-who-must-not-be-named (no, bukan Voldermort.)
And then, as he was explaining to us about this parchment of, like, verses of the Torah which they will put at their doors (he said it’s a cheap security system for them. hehe), he pointed to these three alphabets on the paper. “Shim-dal-yu (those are hebrew alphabets),” he said. “That’s the name of our God, which I cannot mention.”
“Why can’t you mention the God’s name?”
“Yes, we can’t. We can only spell it out, or write it, but we can’t mention it, we can’t say His name out loud.”
“But why?”
“Because He is so Holy, and His name is too, so much so that we can’t mention His name.”
“Then how do you address Him then?”
“Oh, we have one or two names that we can call Him by. Like, Hasham, or simply the One above”.
Which reminds me of another verse in Quraan :
“The most beautiful names belong to Allah. so call on Him by them” (7:180)
The Torah.
Guess what, EACH Torah costs about USD $15-16K! Why? Because it is painstakingly handwritten by a holy man (usually their rabbi). And everytime they had to write the name of God, they would have to immerse themselves in holy water. No wonder it takes them about 1-2 years! And they do it everyday until the whole thing is complete.
Khanaya told us that they usually have one or two Torahs in a synagogue because it is so expensive. And it is usually the rich people who would donate the Torah to the synagogue. And the thing about Torah is, it MUST be handwritten. The printed ones are like.. I didn’t quite get what he said but it’s like, it’s not the real deal. And they are very stringent in ensuring the quality of the Torah. So much so that even if so much as a dot is missing or they found a small hole in the parchment, the whole Torah would have to be discarded (but they can’t simply discard it – they would have to bury it).
So he later brought us to the holiest part of the synagogue – the place where they store the Torah. Dia bukak je bilek tu semua orang went “waaaah”. There were not one, not five, but THIRTEEN TORAHS IN THE ROOM! Maknanya ape? Terbuka untuk interpretasi masing2 ye. Hehe =p Khanaya said he was VERY VERY shocked as he had never heard of a synagogue storing that much Torahs. SINGAPORE tau. 13 Torahs.
And he said that usually Torahs are put away in a safer place. Some even put Torahs in a safe, as there had been cases of burglary before. But in Singapore, it’s just a room in the middle of the synagogue. In his own words, “if you want to steal a Torah, come here and do it!”. HAHA.
Oops da panjang. Sampai di sini saje dulu. Ialliqa’! :)
Next entry: Kosher, Circumcision, 10 Commandments? You wish! and Conversion.
07.19.08
Istikharah nampak?
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“Ya Allah, aku memohon petunjuk daripadaMu dengan ilmuMu dan aku memohon ketentuan daripadaMu dengan kekuasaanMu dan aku memohon daripadaMu akan limpah kurniaanMu yang besar. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Berkuasa sedangkan aku tidak berkuasa dan Engkau Maha Mengetahui sedangkan aku tidak mengetahui dan Engkaulah Yang Maha Mengetahu segala perkara yang ghaib. Ya Allah, seandainya Engkau mengetahui bahawasanya urusan ini (sebutkan urusan kamu.. eg memilih Sociology as a major ke kan) adalah baik bagiku pada agamaku, kehidupanku dan kesudahan urusanku sama ada cepat atau lambat, takdirkanlah ia bagiku dan permudahkanlah serta berkatlah bagiku padanya. Dan seandainya Engkau mengetahui bahawa urusan ini mendatangkan keburukan bagiku pada agamaku, kehidupanku dan kesudahan urusanku sama ada cepat atau lambat, maka jauhkanlah aku daripadanya dan takdirkanlah kebaikan untukku dalam sebarang keadaan sekalipun kemudian redhailah aku dengannya”.
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Beautiful isn’t it? Bila tengah pening2 tak tahu which course of action to take next, performing the istikharah would certainly do wonders, insyaAllah.
I remember a short but meaningful sharing session I had with an ustaz from one of my former madrasahs. He has never taught me before as he started teaching only after I’ve graduated, but on one of my visits to the school, I decided to ask him some questions, and istikharah being of them. He told me that one misconception about istikharah is the fact that we tend to think that the only ’sign’ of istikharah is through dreams. So many would wait for a ‘dream’ to appear like some sort of divine revelation or something.
Err. Not all the time. In fact, it might just be a lucky few yang dapat.
Ustaz told me that after our istikharah, we should just proceed with what we think is the better option. “If the thing is right for you, you will notice that everything will run rather smoothly. Allah will make it easy for you. If not, then you will find hindrances along the way. So you just do your istikharah and proceed in whatever you want to do.”
This reminds me of the verse.. “fa idzaa ‘azamta fatawakkal ‘alalLah” – maka apabila kamu sudah berazam (berusaha), maka bertawakkallah kepada Allah.
So we do our istikharah, proceed in giving the best in our next course of action and then we leave it to God.
What if, after we’ve given our best and we’re really convinced that it is really the best for us, but the outcome turns out to be the opposite of what we’ve always wanted and thought to be it? Jeng jeng jeng.. Janganlah sedih2.. Sedih boleh la.. Tapi takmu banyak2 sangat sampai makan tak kenyang tidur tak lena mandi tak basah kan.. Take comfort in the fact that we’ve done our istikharah earlier and for it to be the opposite of what we wanted, it must be because it is not the best for us. We might not be able to see it now, but it will certainly take effect later if we were to proceed with it.
” ..but it is possible that you dislike a thing which is good for you, and that you love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knows, and you know not” (Al-baqarah, 216).
Yes umm sofiyyah (monologue dalaman. harap maklum). You better get that right into your head. Stop mourning the fact that you’re stuck here while your friends are able to pursue their studies overseas. Walaupun memang macam NAMPAKNYA belajar kat Mesir ke Syria ke Malaysia mana2 ke tu lebih baik, but maybe it is not the best for YOU. At least not now. So stop sulking and prepare for the new semester ahead. Anyway sociology pun macam fun.. kan kan kan?
So istikharah -> usaha -> tawakkal -> outcome (and do know that it is the best for you, insyaAllah).
TA-DAA! It sure feels good to be a Muslim, isn’t it? :)
P/s: Just for our info, istikharah bukan untuk cari jodoh je. And istikharah is invalid for perkara2 yang tidak dibolehkan syara’ (Macam istikharah nak kerja kat ZOUK ke..). So, selamat beristikharah!:)
-Jaga diri, jaga iman-
07.18.08
Ahlan wa sahlan.
Assalaam ‘alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakaatuh.
This is clearly not my first time starting a new blog, but I do harbour secret thoughts of making this the last one. But oh well, let’s hope I’m consistent enough this time around.
So yeah, wish me luck people! And feel free to comment on my posts, be it to agree or disagree. But please do exercise courtesy when doing so ya. That will be all for my first post. Heh. Ilalliqa’, insyaAllah. :)
